alhamdulillah

July, 07th 2016
the day was a very 'deg-degan' day. Was on 3td Ma 2016 i missed my period. Did not know why. I felt affraid that something bad will happen. I tried not to tell anyone about this,but i did corius why it happened. I asked friends that the cycle is close with mine. They had theirs!mine? I don'know. Finally i told hubby,but he only said "just waid another week" i finally whatsapped Nuke,my partner in crime. She suggest to have a test,i agree. I bought 3 test packs! Hehehehehhe..... So nervous. "you must be ready for anything,whatevefer the result,you have to be ready,admit it"
i couldn't sleep at that night, my husabnd jusf try as cool as possible. In the day after,i was shaking to go to the bath room. It felt like i would face a disaster that ruins my day. I count into 30, i saw the line. One line clearly seen aaaaaaannnnd another one line was appear VERY CLEAR. O My GOD!!!! "mamasss maaamaaas maaamaaas" i yelled from the room,i know it shocked him,i went to the side of the bed. "its positive By, its positive" alhamdulullah. The time that has been wait for 3,5 years has come. Allah is great. He replies all the wishes in the right time and condition. Fabiayyi alaaa irabbikumatukazziban?? Allah answer our prayer when everything has complete. It still suprises me when everything comes so fast, so perfect and so right. Nothing wrong thisnall the condition. How blessed i am and gratitude of all this is only Alhamdulillah. Inam now 15 wwek pregnancy, a am fatter now hehehheeh but people said my tummy hasn't show the bumb yet. For heaven sake, i dont care heheheeh as long as i feel OK i dont really care about it hehehhehe. Next week, 16 july 2016 i will have my check up schedule. Cant wait to see it to day "hi" again to mommy and papa bro.

But... I feel sorry to fellows out there that maybe really miss the moment i have. Mknow how they feel. I understand what they expect. Soon, they will have thier turn.i believe we are all n the queu. Maybe we still do not fulfi the requirement so we need to complete it first and back to the line. Infeel it so. What the requirement that God need from me? Maybe ikhlas, sabr and readiness of fiancial. May be Allah sees me that i am too proud of what i have to be a parents, but more than that, be parents is not only about materials, good financial planning, but also a mental readiness, a good quaility of preperation for the child, a good condition and most of all is how we prepare the condusive and comfortbale world for the child. Allah doesn't need your extra effort how to conquer the problesm, but He only need you to have IKHLAS and SABR. As in Al-Ikhlas, it  is implicit, not shown or even mention in the surah itsef, but it have powerful meaning. I agreed that its hard,difficult but trust me once you feel it, you will never know how to figure it out, because it is unseen an unspoken.  So please be ikhlas and sabr. Allah will answer those prayer. Aamiin.